ILP Have a DearK delimma...sigh....

[ILP]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

<div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Originally Posted By: Bandanna</div><div class="ubbcode-body"> </div></div>

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[Bandana]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

<div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Originally Posted By: iluvportland</div><div class="ubbcode-body"><div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Originally Posted By: Bandanna</div><div class="ubbcode-body"> </div></div>

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<div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Originally Posted By: iluvportland</div><div class="ubbcode-body">Final Chapter next.... </div></div>

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[ILP]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

<div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Originally Posted By: Bandanna</div><div class="ubbcode-body"><div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Originally Posted By: iluvportland</div><div class="ubbcode-body"><div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Originally Posted By: Bandanna</div><div class="ubbcode-body"> </div></div>

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<div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Originally Posted By: iluvportland</div><div class="ubbcode-body">Final Chapter next.... </div></div>

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[Bandana]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

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Mi still a wait for the final chapter [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/grin.gif[/img]

[ILP]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

OK...mi drinking some Starbucks Iced Coffee (weeeiii it strong [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/eek2.gif[/img] ) Mi gwine write di final chapter... [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/smile.gif[/img]

I am currently sitting in my hotel room in the theatre district of NYC, resting dese board legs weh mi tek up miself ahn mash up... bout triat...kissteet [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/704555_dwl.gif[/img] [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/70374-lipsrsealed.gif[/img] . Lawd di hotel nice, eesie [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/grin.gif[/img] mi haffi seh daht di current mr ilp did a nice job wid dis pick hereso [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/70458-applaud.gif[/img] Anyways, mi packing up to leave NYC in a few hours and the weekend was bittersweet. The bitter, T didnt let Babygirl A come with me liked she promised [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/frown.gif[/img] The sweet, I am genuinely OK with that. Really [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/cool.gif[/img]

I have come to realize that T and I had this co-dependant (sp) thingy going on and that I needed to grow up too and end the madness, [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/shocked.gif[/img] just as much as T does. Onnu see how mi drap di knowledge pon oonu [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/bannana_purple.gif[/img]

Yes it hurt that she has used Babygirl A in this manner (to get back at me), but I must understand that that aspect of T's personality will not change. Ever. It is something I will just have to learn to deal with. I have no intentions of returning to the way things were. The relationship was way too toxic.

I talked to Babygirl A for a little bit this morning and she is OK and she will continue to be OK. [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/70371-jump.gif[/img] [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/70409-waytogo.gif[/img] I must say that all those things people say about kids being resiliant is so true! Babygirl A is just that. She has embraced life, she is living it. She knows deep within herself that I love her and will continue to do everything that I can to ensure that she has the best chances of being a productive and contributing and LOVING human being, and part of that "loving" includes her mother. [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/70409-waytogo.gif[/img] (even as whack as T is [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/rolleyes.gif[/img] [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/70400-talktohand.gif[/img] ) Babygirl A knows exactly what kinda person her mother is and what kinda person I am. I do know that at this point Babygirl A doesnt need any more negative energy, so I am going to do my part to ensure that I dont give her any.

I think God was also trying to teach ILP a few things. I've yet to figure them all out, but I know that I & am will be a better person for all of this. In His own time. I dont know what the future holds for T and I, but whatever it is...it will be all good in the scheme of things. For all the party's involved we will all be alright.


The End.
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[DearK]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

If she had taken the trip with you, she would not have spent Mother's Day with her mother?


((((ILP))))

[Nunya]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

So what am I going to read on Sunday evenings now??? \0/

[ILP]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

Dear K...T said it was alright to begin with...but you're right. All things work together for them that love the Lord.
is suh di saying guh.... [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/confused.gif[/img]
Anyway, is all good... [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/icon_hug.gif[/img]

[ILP]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

<div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Originally Posted By: Nunya</div><div class="ubbcode-body">So what am I going to read on Sunday evenings now??? \0/ </div></div>

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[mountaingal]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

you're a wise woman, ILP.

[Hush Darlin]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

<div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Originally Posted By: iluvportland</div><div class="ubbcode-body">Dear K...T said it was alright to begin with...but you're right. All things work together for them that love the Lord.
is suh di saying guh.... [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/confused.gif[/img]
Anyway, is all good... [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/icon_hug.gif[/img] </div></div>
(((((((((((IlP))))))))))))
All Things work together for God for those that Love the Lord

[MrsBlue]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

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I think that the message is that yes, you too can be a mother. [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/bannana_purple.gif[/img] Babygirl A is almost an adult now, it's time for you to have one of your own.


Okay, maybe that wasn't the message. That's just me saying that. The real message is that you are a good, sweet, kind, strong, loving person.

Wait, you already knew that, so that can't be the message. [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/ideathink.gif[/img]


Maybe there is no message and the point is not to give you one. Maybe the point is that you are a good, sweet, kind, strong, loving person in Babygirl A's life and you can give her guidance and positivity that she may not be getting from her mother or anywhere else. </span>

[DearK]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

<div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Originally Posted By: Nunya</div><div class="ubbcode-body">So what am I going to read on Sunday evenings now??? \0/ </div></div>


[img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/704555_dwl.gif[/img] It's far from over! We'll just have to see if ILP will feel like sharing. ILP, you'll give us updates, right, like how they bring casts back together for reunion shows, or like how the Stones have been on their FINAL tour for the last 10 years. [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/smile.gif[/img]

[ILP]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

<div class="ubbcode-block"><div class="ubbcode-header">Originally Posted By: Blueness</div><div class="ubbcode-body"><span style="color: #3333FF"> I think that the message is that yes, you too can be a mother. [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/bannana_purple.gif[/img] Babygirl A is almost an adult now, it's time for you to have one of your own. </span> </div></div>

Warra???? Blueness [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/mad2.gif[/img]
Neva, Neva, Neva, Neva, Eva [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/70388-shameonyou.gif[/img]
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[Bandana]

Re: ILP Delimma - Update

(((((iluvportland)))) [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/70459-hugs.gif[/img]

You know everything works out the way they are supposed to...



An mi just have to say that I said never, never, never, and was breeding the next year [img]/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/70390-shhh.gif[/img]